My Fortune (And Hoping I’m Doing It Right)

Had to make one more entry. It's 12 AM here in Philly. While I muse, my son is slumbering happily, in a world I've helped create for him in which he finds little but joy and contentment. My wife is a bit stressed, but she's drifting off to sleep in a world in which she … Continue reading My Fortune (And Hoping I’m Doing It Right)

Day 2, Round 2: Helping My Son By Fighting Myself

I guess anxiety has become a theme with me the past few days. As a friend has recently commented, it's a daily struggle, not something to be casually ignored or tossed aside. This is very true and I hope I didn't give the impression it's easily dealt with. One example for me is working with … Continue reading Day 2, Round 2: Helping My Son By Fighting Myself

Confronting My Anxiety

I was thinking about my last entry and anxiety. It's a challenging thing to deal with as I'm always on edge to a certain extent. It just depends on how powerful it is and how much I'm able to beat it back or cope with it. Sometimes are easier than others. If I'm feeling relatively … Continue reading Confronting My Anxiety

Helping My Son With Anxiety…As I Struggle With It Myself

One of the surprising things I've come across with in the WordPress world are the number of people who struggle with anxiety. It shouldn't surprise me, but for some reason it did. I struggle with anxiety myself. Part of it is fed by CPTSD (complex post traumatic stress disorder) and the way my experiences altered … Continue reading Helping My Son With Anxiety…As I Struggle With It Myself

Fatigue, Fatherhood…And The 100 Acre Wood

It's been a challenge today since I wasn't able to get a decent nights sleep last night. This situation is certainly better than it was a few years ago, but the lack of sleep really effects me. I was able to get a way with it when I was younger, but those days are long … Continue reading Fatigue, Fatherhood…And The 100 Acre Wood

My Broken Dreams Find Joy In My Son’s Own Wings!

(Oh, yes! I think I have a good one here!) This weekend was challenging, but well worth it. My son has started studying for his trimester exams and, as always, I sit with him and help him as he does so. Can you believe someone who starts studying for exams 2 weeks beforehand!? I say … Continue reading My Broken Dreams Find Joy In My Son’s Own Wings!

On Marriage: Why Do We Choose…But (More Importantly) Why Do We Stay?

As I finished writing my last entry, an important thought occurred to me which, I think, puts things into perspective. Every person is unique. Every person has their own set of experiences, values, thoughts, struggles, emotions, reactions and more. Every person has their own perspectives and expectations. Perhaps the reason why we all fall in … Continue reading On Marriage: Why Do We Choose…But (More Importantly) Why Do We Stay?

Insomnia Of Fear

There are some nights when my physical illness prevents me from sleeping. This makes for very long nights, listening to the seconds slowly tick by. These endless nights are followed by days of exhaustion and mental fogginess. The inability to sleep, further impacts my health because it's at night that healing and (mental / emotional) … Continue reading Insomnia Of Fear

Winning Isn’t Anything, There’s Another Thing

(The title is a play on the Vince Lombardi Quote "Winning isn't everything, it's the only thing") Gotta be quick. I'm helping my son study for his trimester exams. One thing that we do is make use of the practice questions on the Khan Academy website. With each question, we see who can get the … Continue reading Winning Isn’t Anything, There’s Another Thing

Father, Husband And My Demons Within

For many years I worked very hard in order to get started in life. I worked, I tried to get through college, I changed careers and got a tech certification, I started a family. It was very hard going and even though I was still struggling with the effects of CPTSD (complex post traumatic stress … Continue reading Father, Husband And My Demons Within